Worshiping Yourself

This makes sense for many reasons. Since I’ve ever had altars, I’ve had altars for myself, because I need some place that doesn’t belong to any particular deity or practice where I can keep together all my personal tools and symbols that apply to my over-arching practice.

I have a door-hanging corkboard that served a similar purpose for me throughout my childhood and adolescence, before I became polytheistic. It was a place to keep things that represented me to myself, and I suspect this habit was very helpful both for surviving my school years, and for having a very solid sense of self when the time came to do intensive trance work and mediumship.

The thing is, medium work is especially dangerous for people who have a weak sense of self, or a desire to not be themselves. The more a medium hates themselves, the easier it may be to step out of a gods way, certainly, but it’s much, much harder to come BACK, and that’s a huge problem.

It’s not the gods’ jobs to live our lives for us. Some individuals are effectively avatars for a deity who has chosen for Their own reasons to live through them on that level, but that is rare, and not done just to shore up someone’s low self esteem.

If you are a spirit worker and you do not already have a strong sense of self, or find yourself subject to self-hate, this practice of making a shrine to yourself – even of designing rituals for invoking yourself – may be a very useful place to start working on that.

–Ember–

The Twisted Rope

It sounds kind of funny, doesn’t it? “Worshiping yourself.” I can hear people thinking already, “what kind of actual well adjusted person worships themselves? Only narcissists and greedy jerks think of themselves as gods needing worship!”

But I am here to challenge that notion.

As you surf through the Pagan-sphere you’ll see a lot of shadow work going on, and if you stop to read some of that shadow work, you’ll see that a lot of it stems from a lack of self love and self worth. We as a society (especially women and minority groups, imo) are taught that we are not worthy of our own love. We are taught that we need to put literally every. single. person. on the planet. before ourselves. And in turn, we neglect our own needs, our own wants and desires, and that can lead to some self-destructive tendencies. When I wrote about…

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About EmberVoices

Ember Cooke has been a member of Hrafnar and Seidhjallr for more than a decade, where she trained to be a Seidhkona, Galdrakona, and Gythia. She founded the Vanic Conspiracy and made ordination vows to the Vanir and her congregation in the summer of 2013. She has contributed to several publications on Heathen and Northern Pagan subjects and regularly presents rituals and workshops at festivals. Her personal practice is more diverse, as the Vanir have lead her into cross-training and service for the wider Pagan community. This has including medium and servitor training in American Umbanda, clergy training with the Fellowship of the Spiral Path, and jail ministry for local counties. She holds a BA with honors in Religious Studies from Santa Clara University. Ember has lived all her life in the south San Francisco Bay Area, and is intimately bound to the valley of her birth.
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2 Responses to Worshiping Yourself

  1. Perlandria says:

    This reminds me of the ‘How would you in invoke/call yourself’ mental exercise you’ve sometimes played with around me.

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    • EmberVoices says:

      Similar purposes, yes. I believe that exercise was Lorrie Wood’s idea originally. That one was primarily so that people could practice the forms for designing invocation, regalia, etc. in a context where you’re guaranteed not to cause problems if you make a mistake, because no actual gods were offended in the process…

      But it has since been pointed out that knowing how to invoke yourself is extremely useful for getting yourself BACK from a difficult experience. 😀
      -E-

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