This makes sense for many reasons. Since I’ve ever had altars, I’ve had altars for myself, because I need some place that doesn’t belong to any particular deity or practice where I can keep together all my personal tools and symbols that apply to my over-arching practice.
I have a door-hanging corkboard that served a similar purpose for me throughout my childhood and adolescence, before I became polytheistic. It was a place to keep things that represented me to myself, and I suspect this habit was very helpful both for surviving my school years, and for having a very solid sense of self when the time came to do intensive trance work and mediumship.
The thing is, medium work is especially dangerous for people who have a weak sense of self, or a desire to not be themselves. The more a medium hates themselves, the easier it may be to step out of a gods way, certainly, but it’s much, much harder to come BACK, and that’s a huge problem.
It’s not the gods’ jobs to live our lives for us. Some individuals are effectively avatars for a deity who has chosen for Their own reasons to live through them on that level, but that is rare, and not done just to shore up someone’s low self esteem.
If you are a spirit worker and you do not already have a strong sense of self, or find yourself subject to self-hate, this practice of making a shrine to yourself – even of designing rituals for invoking yourself – may be a very useful place to start working on that.
It sounds kind of funny, doesn’t it? “Worshiping yourself.” I can hear people thinking already, “what kind of actual well adjusted person worships themselves? Only narcissists and greedy jerks think of themselves as gods needing worship!”
But I am here to challenge that notion.
As you surf through the Pagan-sphere you’ll see a lot of shadow work going on, and if you stop to read some of that shadow work, you’ll see that a lot of it stems from a lack of self love and self worth. We as a society (especially women and minority groups, imo) are taught that we are not worthy of our own love. We are taught that we need to put literally every. single. person. on the planet. before ourselves. And in turn, we neglect our own needs, our own wants and desires, and that can lead to some self-destructive tendencies. When I wrote about…
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