You know, it’s rather a relief to read this, so much of it echoes how I felt leading into my ordination vows last summer, how I’ve still felt this year.
In particular, the vow to not only listen to my gods, but to pass on what They teach me, is daunting. What if I hear Them wrong? What if I hear Them quite accurately, but the community doesn’t believe in the message?
What if I hear Them correctly, and am believed, and it just leads to more responsibilities, more questions, more people looking to me than I can handle?
What if I fail?
Dear gods, what if I SUCCEED?!