Overall, this was a very good year at PantheaCon. My own con went very well indeed.
I will acknowledge up front that there were a few events that were extremely upsetting and disruptive to many people I care about, but those problems were addressed as quickly and respectfully as they possibly could have been by Con staff, and those who were hurt seem more satisfied than not.
I’m afraid I didn’t get to attend any events other than the three I was running, and, by sheer coincidence of timing, a public-style Sumbel (i.e. no oaths section) in the Pagans of Color hospitality suite, hosted by Heathens United Against Racism. I enjoyed that very much.
I also enjoyed the time I got to spend with many beloved friends I otherwise rarely see, and some long-lost friends I was not even expecting to see. My heart is very full.
And I got to buy some much-needed things in the Vendor room, including a shrine figure for Dionysos, jewelry for Odin, and Diana’s latest book, which previewed earlier than I was expecting – and I’m quoted several times! 😀
For my part, I helped run three rituals:
- Dionysos Hestios, Host of the Revel — Devotional with Pandemos lead by Lon Sarver
- Oracular Seidh with Seidhjallr
- Facets of Freyja Devotional with Freyja’s Aett lead by Cara Freyasdaughter
All went very well. In all cases I can identify ways we could improve the ritual in the future, and ways in which the ritual went even better than we’d planned. All involved trance, music, and divination for the people, which seem to be the major factors of my practice, especially in a group setting. I held a major role in each of them – I actually was the guide this year for the first time at PantheaCon for Seidh, which was both daunting and amazing.
The Vanir (mostly Freyja) have been very clear with me that this was the year of stepping up, not just to the work I’ve been doing for years, of course, but to acknowledging my lead role in that work.
Next year I do believe I’ll be obliged to put my NAME up more prominently, offering at least one trance, music, and/or divination programming option.
To whatever degree I have been denying that I am a leader in my community, that is no longer an option for me.
Going in, that was terrifying. Come out, it’s exhilarating. I feel better and more energized than I have since my Ordination.
[Edited to add a link explaining the less private alluded-to upsetting event.]