Should I be sharing my personal gnosis more?
I just started a Tumblr, finally, and as I did a brief search for folks who post material on the Vanir, I quickly found myself overwhelmed. There really are quite a few people already posting about our gods. I’m reminded of names I’ve yet to study in sufficient depth or connect with spiritually… I need to learn more about, and hopefully connect with, Lytir, who seems to be the Vanic god of travel or divination, or maybe both, I don’t know.
I realize in all of this, that I am daunted.
First because I am irrationally territorial about Vanatru. I say “irrational” because I know quite well that there is really no good reason at all why I should be. I would admonish anyone else who allowed such feelings to affect their behavior towards other Vanatruar, so of course I admonish myself even more harshly.
But I also realize that, while I’ll post about politics, and sometimes about my spiritual experiences here in Modern Midgard (aka “the real world”), and more rarely, a bit of dream I had, I by and large don’t post about my personal Gnosis.
Some of that is that I expect it to be rejected, and the more deeply felt the inspirational experience was, the more it hurts to have it rejected. But a lot of it is that when I read other people’s gnosis, I as often as not find myself thinking “No, that’s clearly not right.”
I’m not rude enough to poke at people about it, because it’s no business of mine to tell someone else that their gnosis isn’t good enough for me. Their gnosis isn’t FOR me. So there’s nothing wrong with them having gnosis that doesn’t suit me.
But I apparently feel that there IS something wrong with me having gnosis that isn’t for everyone else. And perhaps more to the point, that there’s something very wrong with me having gnosis I can’t then turn around and prove (?!) is correct.
So I share what is true in my experience with other humans, I will tell the tale of dreams I had, and I may, when I have built up a decent argument, or when my ideas seem of little consequence, share bits of my gnosis here and there.
But the important stuff I’m holding onto tightly.
And maybe I shouldn’t be.
Would you, my readers, prefer I share my Gnosis more freely?
Would you accept them – not necessarily in the sense of taking them on, but in the sense of not treating me poorly when what I’ve shared doesn’t suit you – if I did?