Reblog: Deep thoughts: Gifting and golddigging

> So I thought, well, if Odin can sacrifice himself to himself, than I can give myself to myself. I give myself to myself; I am both the giver and the gift.

This takes on another layer if you get into the meditative value of illusory everyday self vs. higher spiritual Self. The first is that which shifts and diminishes and when we carry the gods, is temporarily displaced. The second is that which we can not lose*, but also can not easily percieve with the first in our way blinding us to our own true natures. In working as Freyja taught Odin, we may make a sacrifice of that first, lesser self, to that second, greater Self, that we may understand the true boundaries of those selves, what can be lost, what must be lost, and what can never be truly lost.

But which is the gift, and which is the giver? Is it our greater Self which is a gift to our everyday selves? Or is the self we carry in everyday life, the self we perceive so much more easily, the self we experience the world through – perhaps on behalf of that greater Self, even – the true gift that is why we have it at all?


* Save perhaps for those who have achieved a level of enlightenment that would allow them to choose to no longer incarnate, which I understand to be the Buddhist goal to escape Samsara, but I don’t believe is usually a Heathen goal.

Silver and Gold

I had two deep thoughts today.

First, Freya gives to herself (and we do, too)

Odin sacrifices “himself to himself” for knowledge of the runes and whatnot; but Freya — Freya is a giver. Working on the Facets of Freya ritual today, I kept getting the message “I am a gift”. (Me, attempting to clarify: “Who is a gift? Me?” Freya: “YES.”  “To who?” YES.” “To you?” “YOU ARE THE GIFT.”)  sigh. So I thought, well, if Odin can sacrifice himself to himself, than I can give myself to myself. I give myself to myself; I am both the giver and the gift. Which fits in perfectly with the facet of Freya that I will be portraying–the Freya of Self-Love. (If you could only see the way She loves us…)

Second, Freya as a golddigger. Literally.

Today’s work also brought up this quote: “I

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About EmberVoices

Ember Cooke has been a member of Hrafnar and Seidhjallr for more than a decade, where she trained to be a Seidhkona, Galdrakona, and Gythia. She founded the Vanic Conspiracy and made ordination vows to the Vanir and her congregation in the summer of 2013. She has contributed to several publications on Heathen and Northern Pagan subjects and regularly presents rituals and workshops at festivals. Her personal practice is more diverse, as the Vanir have lead her into cross-training and service for the wider Pagan community. This has including medium and servitor training in American Umbanda, clergy training with the Fellowship of the Spiral Path, and jail ministry for local counties. She holds a BA with honors in Religious Studies from Santa Clara University. Ember has lived all her life in the south San Francisco Bay Area, and is intimately bound to the valley of her birth.
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